Crystallization

Do you ever get those moments when everything becomes a lot clearer and your life opens out in front of you and you see it for what it is? I think everyone does dont they?

Ive just realised how completely pointless some things are, all the tings we learn through our lives just so that we can become a functional object in society and fit into our intended purpose, they seem like such shit.

Of course they all have a point, there is a reason why we have pointless crap in our lives; because lots of pointless things add up to one very important thing, like the fact that we will be good at our proffession, which hopefully means we will lead a good quality life. Its just such a shame that people with passion for a subject have to go through so much pain on its behalf. A lot of the time this leads to a loss of that passion, the life can be sucked out of you and you feel like you are becoming a drone. I dont know if you ever get it back, or whether the process of misery is just one of the things that you need to be successful, possibly why most proffessionals can be so cynical or pretentious.

I dont want to be a victim of this but im afraid to say that it is already happening, i just hope i emerge from the other end of the tunnel into the light...

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Ireland's Delay

I was quite shocked to find out today that homosexuality was only legallised in Ireland in 2003, extremely far behind the legalisation that was passed in the UK in 1967. I know that Ireland has had a very turbulant history and is extremely influenced by the catholic church, hence the issues on aborti0n. I just find it quite sad in a way that basic human rights have taken so long to be enforced in the country.

Trigger Happy Censor

Im getting pretty pissed off with the increasing amount of censorship in this country. Ok its not as bad as some places but it seems to have gotten worse recently, which is strange because you would think that as our sociey evolves it wold get past such things but no it seems not. Usually the ezcuse is children, oh dear 'what if children see it/hear it!?' well i have an answer to that, people want an easy way out - its an excuse for lazy parents. If they were bringing their children up properly they wouldnt be subjected to adult music or such like. The thing that annoys me is that children are about 15% of the population, what about everyone else that may want to listen to music as it was intended? or videos as they were intended?

On The Hill

I remain enraged today after last nights English Heritage documentary on Park Hill. Those of you who know me know exactly what Park Hill and Sheffield means to me, and i feel that the documentary became just another way of slagging the complex off, and preserving the publics fear of the credit crunch by producing another doom and gloom programme that was full of twanging low music that is always used in depressing 'real' docu-programmes which basically sounds like someone twanging an out of tune guitar in a dirty underpass.

I despair at the politics behind the project, i think the lib dems should be strung up and shot. Yes the English Heritage people did annoy me as they seemed unbelievably snobbish and i do think that Urban Splash are doing their best but what annoys me is the constant questioning of the listing status. Its already been done so stop it, its like saying 'we shouldnt really have gone to war' but its a bit late for it once ten thousand people have been shot.

I still think that this project will be amazing if it gets finished, but i cant get rid of this impression that the stigma attatched to Park Hill has almost become its reason for bieng here, ooh lets have something controversial. its not controversial when it comes down to a question of logic, preservation was the logical thing to do in my opinion.

How many times do people have to be told for fucks sake! The concrete isnt grey!!!!! Its nowhere near grey, its somewhere imbetween beige and honey coloured. The idea behind this building is that the concrete is exposed! Jesus they really should have got someone in that knows about brutalism and that admires it not these annoying fucking people with a rod up their arse that think a crumbling church (which we have billions of in this country) is a supreme example of beauty. Very few people in the documentary had any idea about brutalism if any, except for the architects who went to Marseille to visit the original inspiration for Park Hill; Le Corbusier's Unite d'habilitation which itself has just been restored. They even spoke to the architect who refurbished it, he told them about the ways in which it must be restored, now there was a man who knew the ideas behind brutalism and Le corbusier.

Ill take a deep breath and calm down, but if those lib dem bastards at Sheffield City Council do anything else to piss me off like continue to run Park Hill into the ground or to destroy the Sevenstone redevelopment then you will be sure to hear about it.

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